Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Misunderstood *


If you can’t see what’s inside then how do you know the truth? The truth behind my tears, which you cruelly discard to something that you think is right. But it’s not and you will never know what’s real for what is felt is felt inside. It’s not openly shown for you to see or understand.

And I don’t blame you for not knowing cause all that matters is that I still care and I do love. But it hurts and my heart is broken. And I don’t know how to make light of this. I don’t know how nor do I want to explain.

When two hearts collide despite the love within, there is simply no ending. I don’t want to cry. I don’t want to linger in misery and yet I am stuck for the simple word called love makes it so difficult for me to leave. I want to leave but my heart won’t budge and I am stuck. But I’m already gone, my soul and the spirit within has vanished. I am living in an empty shell of broken love and hope. I want to believe again but I don’t know how and it hurts.

The emptiness engulfs and I am drowning in uncertainty and fear as I picture a life without. The tears won’t stop falling and it makes me wonder just how much I still have inside. I am sad, I am in tears and I am broken. I want this to end but I don’t know where to start.

How do you know what’s inside, how do you express it so you no longer be misunderstood? I did not mean to hurt and yet I did. Forgive me for my tactlessness, forgive me for the tears. When all it really is, is just one person loving another, perhaps a little too much…


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36 comments:

Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:01 AM

Mariuca! :-D :-D

Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:03 AM

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:09 AM

I feel sad when you're sad Mariuca *BIG HUGS*

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Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:22 AM

I'm here for ya sweetie *offering an ear*

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Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:51 AM

Mariuca, I may not really know what that sadness for but I can sense that u're in a great fear of losing and at the same time u just don't know how to proceed with the next step. Consider this, life without probs and obstacles is just like living in a fantasy world. The only thing is ppl are always dreaming to live in it. However, the reality of life is far differ than that. One has to carve his or her ways throughout life. The destiny is just a dream and no one knows for sure one will be there soon. Let's take it a step at a time. Probs are there to be worked out not to be messed up. Perhaps, understanding from both parties are vital at this stage. Clear up the system and be honest to each other. Thus, misunderstanding may make its way and the truth could be the cure for the broken hearts. :* :* :* :* :*

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Monica,  August 19, 2009 1:51 AM

Mariuca, I may not really know what that sadness for but I can sense that u're in a great fear of losing and at the same time u just don't know how to proceed with the next step. Consider this, life without probs and obstacles is just like living in a fantasy world. The only thing is ppl are always dreaming to live in it. However, the reality of life is far differ than that. One has to carve his or her ways throughout life. The destiny is just a dream and no one knows for sure one will be there soon. Let's take it a step at a time. Probs are there to be worked out not to be messed up. Perhaps, understanding from both parties are vital at this stage. Clear up the system and be honest to each other. Thus, misunderstanding may make its way and the truth could be the cure for the broken hearts. :* :* :* :* :*

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ayie,  August 19, 2009 2:37 AM

Hi mariuca and mon!!

ayie,  August 19, 2009 2:46 AM

So sorry for how you feel now...

sometimes we go through such pains and troubles but with that love that hurts you...it can also mend all the pain. Keep up your faith and don't dwell in it. Things can be resolved so long as both communicate and try to understand. I completely agree with monica's piece of mind above.

I hope you'll lighten up and get back on your feet.

Monica,  August 19, 2009 3:01 AM

Hi Ayie! ;)

Scotty's Princess,  August 19, 2009 5:59 AM

Oh! I am sorry to hear this Marzie. I can feel you are very sad and broken. I can feel your sorrow over here. I hope you'll feel better soon...

elai,  August 19, 2009 8:37 AM

oh, dear..., i hope you'll feel better soon... :( :( :(

TH,  August 19, 2009 8:37 AM

misunderstood always happen in among family and friends :(

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TH,  August 19, 2009 8:38 AM

when comes to love, not able to measure and think other loved us like we love them.

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elai,  August 19, 2009 8:39 AM

i'm not used to seeing you like this... do cheer up, okay? all this will pass and you just have to be strong... :* :* :* :*

foongpc,  August 19, 2009 10:18 AM

Hi mariuca. So sad today? Sorry to hear about your problem. Hope things will work out for you. :)

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foongpc,  August 19, 2009 10:20 AM

Misunderstanding happens sometimes and you'll have to be strong and believe it will pass and the sun will shine again. :)

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Liza,  August 19, 2009 11:42 AM

Oh Marzie, I feel sad too. I wish I could tell you to stop crying but I won't. Go and cry your heart out. It will help you feel better. Hope things will get better. Take care sweetie.

Hugs, hugs and more hugs, hope it'll help you feel better.

A Simple Life

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Liza,  August 19, 2009 11:42 AM

Oh Marzie, I feel sad too. I wish I could tell you to stop crying but I won't. Go and cry your heart out. It will help you feel better. Hope things will get better. Take care sweetie.

Hugs, hugs and more hugs, hope it'll help you feel better.

A Simple Life

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bem69,  August 19, 2009 12:06 PM

Hi Marzie, this is truly not you at all, never seen you sad (on your blogs, that is) Hmm, I have nothing much to say, just that with love, the greater the love you have for someone or something, the greater the impact when your heart gets broken. And thats why you're getting hit real bad here.

Communication is key here, transparency between the parties is really, really important and if you can, don't hide what you're truly feeling. Guessing games only serve to feed assumptions, and I'm not talking about the good ones. I know. I've learned it the hard way.

Whatever it is, I hope you're up and about to your cheerful self soon. Hope everything works out ya. If anything I say offends you, I apologise, its just my lame 2 cents :)

Nick Phillips says,  August 19, 2009 12:07 PM

Whatever you're going through, hope things get better for you soon :D

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Nessa,  August 19, 2009 1:48 PM

Dear Marzie,

Sending some virtual hugs over. I miss the cheerful Marzie but life is a rollercoaster they say. Take care ya.

Much love!

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Ane,  August 19, 2009 3:51 PM

:'( :'( :'( :'(

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Ane,  August 19, 2009 3:53 PM

Hugsy Marzie! This is the first time I've witnessed you really sad.. and just like Mon, I am sad when you're sad! :'( :'(

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Ane,  August 19, 2009 3:58 PM

I don't know exactly why you're sad or who's making you sad Marzie, and I really don't know what to say, but just know that I am here for you, just in case you need a shoulder to cry on and an extra pair of ears to listen to you.. :) Hugs sweetie, and just know, that whatever it is you're going through, it will pass. :)

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Rizal,  August 19, 2009 4:17 PM

Marzie,

Harap semua sihat dan marzie bawa bersabar ye.

Seperti juga "bloggers2" nyatakan, memang rizal terkejut la sebab marzie selalu nampak ceria, gumbira seolah-olah dunia ini tiada masalah. Antara sebab itu juga rizal suka berkunjung ke sini.

Dugaan hidup memang ada kalanya berat dipikul, tapi itulah dugaan kita sebagai manusiakan. Rizal doakan agar marzie tenang dan jumpa penyelesaian Marzie. Apapun keputusan yang datang, rizal harap marzie hadapi yer dengan tenang dan senyuman.

Rizal pun bukan pandai bagi nasihat2 bijak ni, tapi yang pasti, kami semua ada di sini untuk nyatakan sokongan kami kat marzie sebagai kawan bloggers.

Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan

:)

life ramblings,  August 19, 2009 4:56 PM

cheer up Marzie. seeing you so sad is no fun. :'(

whatever problems you're facing, you have to be strong and remind yourself that tomorrow will be a better day. ;)

life ramblings,  August 19, 2009 4:57 PM

hope things will get better for you soon. lots of hugs dear. :* :*

Phatelara,  August 19, 2009 5:22 PM

Marzie...BIG HUGS! :* :* :*
I'm offering you an infinity's worth of coupons with BIG HUGS, HUGS, SHOULDER TO CRY ON written on them, so that you can claim any of them from me, anytime you need one.

Phatelara,  August 19, 2009 5:23 PM

If you're sad, I'm sad too, Marzie.. :(

Roxiticus Desperate Housewives,  August 19, 2009 8:30 PM

So sad for you Marzie... I don't know if it is any consolation, but when you are sad your talent as a writer really shines... such passionate, compelling words on the page.

Roxy

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Roxiticus Desperate Housewives,  August 19, 2009 8:30 PM

So sad for you Marzie... I don't know if it is any consolation, but when you are sad your talent as a writer really shines... such passionate, compelling words on the page.

Roxy

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LadyJava,  August 19, 2009 8:51 PM

Oh dearie... what's going on?? why are you so depressed and who has misunderstood you.. alamak why must it happened when I cant be near to console ni..

Hugs dearie..
You know you can always email and text me eh... who email tu lambat skit lah nak reply..

whatever it is.. know I'm here ok!!

Hugs!!
LJ

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anny,  August 19, 2009 10:59 PM

Life has its ups and downs... sometimes its good to talk about things... out in open.. dun keep it in your heart. It could be resolved with communication. Don't assume.. ask.. talk.. tell... communicate.
Don't be sad for long ya Marzie.. go hug Phoebe.. it helps. I hope tomorrow brings you lotta rainbows ;)

Bill,  August 23, 2009 10:22 PM

Wow i dont know what is going on in your life right at this moment but even though i am million miles away i still will take the time for a friend to listen if needed. I wish you all the best and hope that things will work themselves out for you. :)

Bill,  August 23, 2009 10:26 PM

Just remember dear friend you are not alone look at all the people here that care about you. :* :*

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